DEFEAT ME

Star,
If you are in my position, what will you do?

Yesterday was like a....hurricane. I am still sad and disappointed over the result. I wanna cry. My mind is full of bad thoughts right now. I don't accept this. This is truly a nightmare. Until now, I never got this kind of position which was really pulling me out of the circle. In this circumstance, I don't think that I have true friends anymore. But then, since when I have friends? I was just by myself in the first place. This person who was too proud of herself and getting cocky over some kudos from her "people-who-called-themselves-friends". Heh, I was too naive to believe that I had friends. Yeah, I helped you then you did this to me. BACKSTABBER huh? Please. I was too kind to help you all. I was too kind thinking that I'm even with you all. But that is WRONG. You are LOWER than me, FRIENDS. I want to say that directly to you, but it's just I am too kind-I'm thinking that it will hurt you so I don't say anything at all. You, sly people-please realize, you are just SCUM. I say this, but it doesn't mean I am anybetter than all of you. But I remind you, you are just SCUM. From this experience, I learnt that nobody can be trusted except God and I have to be a better person and disappear from your sight as soon as possible. I don't want to see you all. Mark this. I HATE YOU ALL.

THIS, THIS, AND THAT

Hello star! I am back!

Today, I will share few things about me_cuz I'm in a good mood today :) 

Now, I am still a junior high school student. But few months more and I'll be graduating here. So many things had happened in almost 3 past years and it just feels like *WOW, so fast! Love,friendship,studies,family_I just can't help but thinking how those things are really important. All of us might spend most of our time at school, it's like our second home. We talk,study,laugh,cry,do homeworks-tasks, all together 8 hours/day! We share anything, something, everything, every single not important thing(ha ha).

Since I am the aloof one, it seems that I rarely have friends, sorry I meant...ummm friends that really understand me.  I didn't ask them to understand me and maybe_I didn't know them well either. Yes, I am the introvert one,moody, and hot-temper. I had to manage myself adapting to everyone here. We may have different interests but we're still friends,right?

Whenever I am alone, I will always draw something_really-anything to let out my mind. Teehee, I am a big fan of japanese comics and K-pop! I also like AKB48 though. This is one of my drawings, hm...I drew it two years ago and I'm relieved that this one wasn't under my suddenly-lost-important-things list! There're still many and I'll upload it more if I have free time. What do you think about this? Is it that bad? Or the opposite? Tell me! :>

OVER YOU

It's lovesick. 

Wow, after a loong long time_really long time, it seems that I can feel this desire again for the second time. It feels great! My heart races by the time I am being with him, I can't even look to his eyes properly. All I can see is his writing over the white paper and his bare hand. His scent is on my mind, he smells really good. Not bad, I like this feeling! It's burning inside!

He is cool,smart,good looking...and what makes it even better is he's older than me. I think his hobby is smiling,'cause whenever I see him_it appears that he always smiles at me (ha ha).

STILL, I AM A TURTLE

Hey star, if you were me..what would you do? 

Don't laugh at me 'cause today I have already made a big step! He did look at me! He did smile at me! Geez~ He is such a nice guy,isn't he? I never think there's someone out there that would smile at me innocently and incrediblely really cute. I was there in my shell,covering me up without someone noticed it. Wait...he's actually staring at me...his eyes..were beautiful.

Finally, I got a chance to say "I'm going home,see y'!" It was full of dilemma. Embarrasing,I couldn't even seeing him properly and I just ended it up by saying something so reaally really ordinary. I thought he would tell nothing. But then, he smiled_laughed, replied "Okay!" His expressions are so priceless. 

Star, you like him too right?